{"id":1394,"date":"2018-11-27T18:31:23","date_gmt":"2018-11-27T18:31:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/?p=1394"},"modified":"2018-11-27T18:35:58","modified_gmt":"2018-11-27T18:35:58","slug":"the-door-to-the-divine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/the-door-to-the-divine\/","title":{"rendered":"The Door to the Divine"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-1396 lazyload\" data-src=\"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/dark-door-300x224.png\" alt=\"Door to the Divine\" width=\"300\" height=\"224\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/dark-door-300x224.png 300w, https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/dark-door-768x574.png 768w, https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/dark-door.png 890w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" src=\"data:image\/svg+xml;base64,PHN2ZyB3aWR0aD0iMSIgaGVpZ2h0PSIxIiB4bWxucz0iaHR0cDovL3d3dy53My5vcmcvMjAwMC9zdmciPjwvc3ZnPg==\" style=\"--smush-placeholder-width: 300px; --smush-placeholder-aspect-ratio: 300\/224;\" \/>The picture is of a young women, on her knees in anguish and prayer, exhausted and over-whelmed by the thoughts, the thoughts, the incessant torrent of torment in thoughts. She&#8217;s been praying for outcomes, for solutions, for answers, she feels so alone and abandoned, as if there&#8217;s a door welded shut between her and the divine.<\/p>\n<p>All the learning, all the self-examination, all the practice trying to establish dominion over the thoughts have been of no avail &#8211; still the deep-seated accusations: I&#8217;n not worthy, I&#8217;m not good enough, I&#8217;m not safe if I&#8217;m seen because I will be attacked for my lack of value.<\/p>\n<p>Who is this I? The learning says it&#8217;s merely the illusion of identity, a projection along the journey. This time, a new sense is forming, a curiosity &#8211; what happens if she lets go trying to control the thoughts? Maybe just allow them, as perfect mirrors of a need for healing?<\/p>\n<p>Now the prayer is of one thought &#8211; Father, I ask to be healed. Wait, is there a crease of light she sees from the door?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The picture is of a young women, on her knees in anguish and prayer, exhausted and over-whelmed by the thoughts, the thoughts, the incessant torrent of torment in thoughts. She&#8217;s been praying for outcomes, for solutions, for answers, she feels so alone and abandoned, as if there&#8217;s a door welded shut between her and the [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23,16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1394","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-selfgrowth","category-spirituality"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1394","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1394"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1394\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1397,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1394\/revisions\/1397"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1394"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1394"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/5startimes.com\/cjsalvar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1394"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}